Children are a Blessing....Even When Having a Meltdown in Target

 I have to start this off with this....I am writing this to me.  There is a wonderful book titled, "No better mom for the job" by Becky Keife.  If you have not read it, I highly suggest it.  It was suggested to me after my son hurt his church mate over a toy, and I was at my wits end trying to navigate the world of special needs kids.  There are days on this parenting journey where you walk into the day with full confidence and assurance that you have finally mastered the art of mothering.  Now, I am not saying that happens often, but they do exist.  The other 364 days of the year can be filled with doubt, worry, anxiety, and angst, especially in today's world.  Our kids make mistakes.  Sometimes they are HUGE mistakes as this world pulls at them to follow it's path rather than the Lord's. As moms, we let that weigh into our own confidence and the roots begin to grow. 

Having special needs kids puts a whole new spin on our lives.  Things that we used to enjoy as a family, such as going out to dinner, having company over,  and social outings look very different now than in previous years. When we are invited to any function, so much thought goes into location (Will we be by a busy road? Is there unfenced water? How far can they run?) Social (How many people will be in attendance? Who is familiar to them? ) Emotional (Where can they regulate themselves? Who will put themselves out to engage with them?).  Our old lives were dictated by availability.  Our new lives are guided by laws we have set up for the safety and protection of all involved. 

I know we are not alone. The statistics of children coming from care and having some form of disability are staggering.  Whether it be educational, emotional, or physical, it is a prevalent theme for sure.  In fact, in our special needs children's church ministry, "All In", we have had 5 children who attend on a regular basis over the last 9 months and each one of them have been adopted through the foster care system.  That speaks volumes.

As with everything, how can I view this through a Biblical lens?  When every day feels like "Groundhog's Day" and the pattern of behaviors seems relentless, where is the Gospel? 

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you" Jeremiah 1:5.  We must first remember our children are the Lord's.  He created them, He alone has their future planned.  His love for them is unmatched and that means that we can rest in His goodness, not our futile planning.  

"They were bringing the children to him that he might touch them, and the disciples rebuked them.  But when Jesus saw it, he was indignant and said to them, Let the little children come to me; do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God". Mark 10:13 I must be bringing them before the throne.  Quietly with the Lord and loudly so they hear, praying for and with our children is the best way to walk away from anxiety and fret that comes from the unknown.

 Lastly, "Children are a gift from the Lord." Psalm 127:3.  When we view our children as gifts, delights, wonders, (Yes, even in the midst of a meltdown in Target Mamas), we can change the way we see the situation. 

As we all have, I have had the most recent shooting in my head.  Mainly because we have a small Christian school where we worship that my daughter attended.  How many of those parents would do anything for a meltdown today?  Every day we have with our children, even the chaos filled ones, is a day that we can see them as a gift.  Let's hug our tantrum filled one minute, giggling the next,  little ones a little tighter tonight.  

     

When Hollywood Gets it Wrong

 When Hollywood Misses the Mark

        "She's not my sister.  She's a fugitive orphan".  

        Parent hitting child in the head, "Yes, she is your sister.  Now do what she says".

        The adopted child says she wants to search for her first family and is told she is

         ungrateful and that it will hurt the adoptive family deeply, but they will help.

        "Puss in Boots, The Last Wish", is Hollywood getting it wrong.  When you have roughly 135,000 children adopted in the United States every year, we should be moving towards a place where a movie that is geared towards children, would be more inclusive of children living in foster and adoptive homes.  "Goldilocks" should not have to feel guilt about the natural curiosity that comes from being raised away from her first family.

        The mark that Hollywood is missing is the first family loss. At different parts of an adoptees life, they will wonder, question, and think about their origins.  Think about this. 23 and Me, the DNA Registry created to track our blood line and countries of origin, made 272 million dollars just in 2022.  In 2023, I will be joining those numbers to find information on my own birth father.

        Scripture is filled with genealogy.  In fact, the New Testament opens with it.  Matthew connects the dots of Jesus to Abraham and to David pointing to his promised coming through both biblical figures.  Our culture, heritage and lineage have a deep impact on how we view ourselves and our life choices. However, most adopted children do not have that information.  

        So, we have the hard conversations with our kids and with each other.  In the end, Goldilock's adoptive family has her back, so there is a bit of redemption there, but the guilt trip laid on was out of bounds and as a society, we need to do better.  Let's pray for the kids in care who hear these harmful words and pray for those in Hollywood to be better informed about these young minds and hearts.

The irony?

Goldilock's key phrase in the movie?

"That was not just right"

Big Feelings? Little Feelings?

Big Feelings?  Little Feelings? Everything in Between?

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          We call it a heart check.  How does your heart feel?  Is it racing or relaxed?  Look at your hands.  Are they shaking or still?  What about your stomach?  Do you feel butterflies or is it calm?  These are all good inward checks that we use to keep anxiety away, or be able to express it.  It could be first day jitters, or recital nerves, or maybe a fight with a friend or sibling.  

          One of our biggest tools is our heart check-in board. During self reflection, it is easier for children to see options and grade what they are feeling.  From there, you have a springboard to talk about why all of these big or little feelings are in your life.  Kids who have experienced loss may not know or understand how to process the trauma they have endured so just knowing that there is a struggle is the beginning of diving into the origins of the emotions.  

          The famous weeping of Jesus in John 11:35, and the anguish He felt in the garden in  Matthew 26, both show us that powerful feelings and emotions are not sinful. It is where we put them that shows our heart. Moses' social anxiety from his adoption left him feeling as an alien in both the Israelite and Egyptian circles.  Later, his loss came out as inferiority when the Lord asked him to go to Egypt and his response was, "Who am I that I should go?" Exodus 3:11, "I have never been eloquent." Exodus 4:10, and "Pardon your servant Lord, please send someone else." Exodus 4:13. I would be hard pressed to find any soul that has not endured some sort of this searing pain, whether it be from loss, or inflicted by another person, we all can pinpoint a time where the emotion was so strong that we we were sure we couldn't find our way out.  

          I am thankful that passages such as these show us the reality of life.  I love that the Lord didn't Instagram the Bible, letting us only see the beautiful parts while laundry is lurking behind every door.  He showed us the deepest flaws, the rawest emotions, and we find solace in that fact. When faced with the heaviness that life can throw, we see both Jesus and Moses having a conversation with the Lord.  It wasn't just blind faith. It was conversation.  It was prayer.  

           While using the tools we are given with our kids, the goal is to get them to seek the Lord.  When they are worried about their birth parents, they can pray.  When reunification is not certain, they can pray.  Maybe there is a big test in school, a friend hurt their heart, or they are just unsettled about life, they can pray. 

        Download this great tool for free and heart check your kids on a regular basis!  You will love the conversation it brings out! 

     

 

Merry Christmas!

      Merry Christmas!  We know that even at this time of year, your family dynamic could be changing.  We know the phone still rings with calls from the home finding unit through the whole holiday season, and as disheartening as that is, we thank you for opening your home, even now.  

     Last year, according to The Family Preservation Foundation, 437,283 children were removed from their first families.  That increases the number of of over 9 million children being removed in the last 20 years.  That is astounding.  

     We have seen families take in children on Christmas Eve, and our own daughter was placed with us on Easter Eve, several years ago. The way the community comes together during these times is such an encouragement!  We had a friend who went out that day and bought us a car seat. Having only hours to prepare to take in a child, especially during a holiday, adds a whole lot to an already messy situation.  However, there is a grace that the Lord extends in the chaos.  

     This season, as we look and see foster and adoptive families around us, let's find a way to be a blessing to them.  That might mean a perfectly timed card of encouragement, offering to make a meal, babysitting so the parents can Christmas shop, or just a listening ear.  There are so many ways to support our families, especially during the hustle and bustle of the holiday season.   

     Finally, as we have children in our home who have lost their first families, either permanently, or for the time being, let's look at Jesus in the manger.  He was born for His last day, and on that day, the phrase He uttered, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me"? Matthew 27:46 shows great loss. That day, rather than on us, God poured his wrath on Jesus, who bore our judgement.  The agony that He endured can almost be felt as the words leap off the page. Jesus understands loss, He endured loss and the wonderful truth as we celebrate this Christmas season, is that He did it for us.  He is the Romans 6:23 free gift of God of eternal life.  This tiny baby, that so humbly came to earth in a dirty stable, surrounded by animals as he breathed his first breath, is the reason that we can bring hope and healing to whoever the Lord brings into our homes.  

     As always, we are praying for you and want to wish you a very blessed Christmas season!

     

How to Ensure a Successful "Yes"

What does a typical "yes" look like in your home?  Are there steps can we take to make the transition easier for everyone?  Absolutely! 

Step 1) Know your base

     Whether you are single, a married couple, or a couple with children, it's imperative that you know yourself, your limits, and those of your people.  A healthy acceptance of children into the home will always start with a prayerful meeting of the core group.  Check to see if you have room in your schedules for everything the child may require such as doctors, school meetings, homework, clothing upkeep, etc.  It may be tempting to just say yes and let everyone know of the change later.  That is a recipe for disaster.  There have been times that someone in our home was not comfortable with a placement, even short term ones.  One time, my daughter was redecorating her room and wanted all of my attention to help her.  She asked that we say no to a weekend respite child.  It happens. The home finding unit understands.  They know that even though you signed up for this, you also signed up for your own life as well.  You don't want to sacrifice the base to help another child.  Some suggestions would be to have a meeting with everyone in the home, assuring that everyone is on the same page.  Another would be to have a one on one with the person with whom the new child will share the room.  They may feel pressured by the crowd to say yes and feel guilty about not wanting to share a room.  Our rule of thumb is that everyone has to be fully on board.

Step 2)  Be prepared for a short term placement to be a long term placement

    As the home finding unit get calls to place children, they only have a small handful of information.  What they hear is the biological mother telling them, with all certainty, that the child can go live with her cousin who lives two towns over, only to find out that the cousin wants nothing to do with the situation.  Perhaps a grandmother comes forward as a resource, but it is shown that her housing is not up to code.  The finders may go into a situation looking like they may have a perfectly suitable option, and the family says they don't want all of the issues of dealing with the state.  So, when you say yes to a weekend placement, or a temporary one while a family member is being vetted, expect things to take a turn and become long term.  If you cannot handle another long term placement at that time, you may want to reconsider, based on the child's age, as to prevent yet another loss.  

Step 3) Readying the home

    Imagine coming home from a stressful day at work, and the house is a mess, the children are screaming, and all you want to do is hide under a blanket.  Walking into chaos is not ideal for anyone, but especially children coming into care.  Having the home tidied, smelling nice (but not strong), animals put away, children calmed, can do wonders to a child who is in a high state of anxiety.  It is the parent's job to set the tone of the home, even more so during critical times.  If rooms ned to be rearranged, try having it done well ahead of time.  Have a welcome basket with needed hygiene and personal items in the room. Several towels and a robe if you know the child's size would be a great addition.  For older children, a peg board for pictures of their friends (especially if they have had to switch school districts), or for pictures of their first family for them to display.  You can even ask who everyone is, helping to engage conversation. 

Step 4)  Do not bombard

    Having been a teen that walked through that strangers door, I can tell you, DO NOT BOMBARD! Casual, light conversation is great.  Using the time to familiarize the child with things they will need to know are so important.  Even if your home is smaller, showing them the layout is a wonderful icebreaker.  you can tell funny stories about each room to relax the both of you. You are completely comfortable in your home.  The new child is not.  You know exactly how to get a glass of water, or if the juice is yours to drink, or if the fruit on the table is off limits.  Remember, making the child feel less like a guest is the key.  Squatting down to a younger child, or looking an older child in the eye is disarming.  Using non judge mental soothing tones goes a long way.  If the child is having difficulties transitioning, sometimes getting them to open up by asking questions helps.  "So, do you have a favorite kind of juice?  Can I show you how to use our television?  Do you have any allergies? What is your favorite meal?  Do you want to help me shop for it and cook it"? Even though you may know the answers to some of these, it helps to ground the child in the here and now and gets them out of their own head.  Answer as many questions as you can without revealing anything about the case.  Some examples are:

Q: "Do you know where my mom is"? 

A: "You know, I don't, I only know about you right now.  Does your mom have a best friend?  I bet she is with her right now and her friend is giving her a hug.  I know this is really hard for you and her.  Do you want some time alone or would you like to talk some more"?  

Q: "Why can't I be with my family"? 

A:  "Right now, you have a lot of people looking out for you.  You have so many people who love you and want to do what is right for you and that includes your family!  A whole bunch of people are working things out to make sure you stay safe and really, we don't know what that will look like for a little bit.  We are here to see you and hear what you are feeling about this. 

Q: "When can I go home"?

A: "Right now, that's not certain.  The one thing I can promise is that I will keep you as up to date as I can.  I promise to be honest with you and you can always come to me with your big feelings and heart worries! 

    If you feel the tone of the voice, it is reassuring, yet honest.  Kids are smart.  Most know when they are being treated as just a "gullible kid".  They need real, honest answers presented in a way that is going to reassure their hearts. 

    Whether you are a first time foster parent, or have been at this for years, each child is different.  Every first day is just as unique.  Just know, you are doing the hard work, the tireless work and so often, the thankless work.  We thank you for jumping in and holding their hearts.  It creates beautiful outcomes.