How do you find the message of the Gospel in one of the messiest situations you can find yourself in?  The same Gospel that preaches joy and peace, can it also cover the chaos that follows everyone involved in the "system"?  Can it reach that child who is in a beautiful new room tonight, with all new toys, clean bedding, and a soft rug for her feet, yet is crying herself to sleep because her loss was so great today.  Can it reach the teenager whose parent just overdosed and his grandfather just because his new father?  The scenarios present themselves differently in every family represented in care, but it all has the same outcome.  Sorrow. So how do we line up a Bible that instructs us to have joy in all things with a system that creates sorrow?  

    "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding". Proverbs 3:5 It's an easy verse to memorize, it's one of the hardest to live out.  We are so tempted to grab the reigns, yank the situation back into our hands and struggle with it until we hand it over to the Lord again and again.  The only hope and comfort that we can find when the hardest of life hits, is the fact that the Lord doesn't sleep.  He doesn't slumber. Nothing is ever a surprise.  We think so much with our finite minds that we can't even begin to grasp the power of His name, the marvelous things He has created just by speaking them into existence.  The same God of the universe is the same God who knew there would be a knock on the door today of the child being removed.  He knew that the phone would ring dear foster parent. He also knew that the child that you held so dearly for the last two years, will be reunited with his first family tomorrow, despite the fact that you are the only parent he has known. Even in the victory, there is grief because your new permanency leaves a mother, father, first family with deep loss.  

    "It is the Lord that goes before you.  He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you.  Do not fear or be dismayed" Deuteronomy 31:8.  This verse is one of the most encouraging texts when it comes to the uncertainty of permanency.  On the days that court makes a decision that you believe is harmful for the child, or will cause her even more loss than already experienced, the reveling that takes place in the knowledge that the Lord loves that child so much more than you ever can brings great comfort. During the times you may not be able to provide the comfort and needs of your foster child any longer, you can be before the throne of God, praying for them, praying for their family, and find grace in the moment to let yourself grieve.  The Lord will be before you and beside you as you process the loss. 

  "You have turned my mourning into dancing" Psalm 30:11. Don't stay there.  Feel the grief, but don't stay there.  Allow the Lord to do what only He can do, and that is take the hardest of days or the most beautiful of moments, and grow you.  Let this season of uncertainty increase your faith as you learn to lean on Him.  The Gospel shows up in foster care through the beauty of selflessness, sacrifice, and love for the people around us.  That includes birth parents, case workers, judges, and everyone else that the Lord brings into your world.  Foster care is never just about the children.  It is so much deeper and richer than that.